biarkankutausegalamu

Kamu pikir diam itu adalah emas
Aku pikir kita sudah belajar, bahwa diam sering menjauhkan kita

Kamu rasa yg terbaik buatmu adalah baik buatku
Aku rasa yg terbaik adalah yg KUrasa baik

Kamu pilih menutupi hal2, utk menjaga aku
Aku merasa sebaliknya, dikasihani dan tidak dianggap.

Kamu bilang karena sayang sama aku maka begitu
Aku merasa disayang bila kamu membiarkanku jadi terdekatmu

Jika kau benar peduli,
Berhenti jaga aku dengan caramu.

Biarkanku tau segalamu.

miles away

Too much of no see
Has made uncountable silence become so loud

When it's a long distance love
Those three words are never enough

Biasa...

Dia membuat aku biasa untuk tdk mengharapkannya...
Selanjutnya?
Biasa untuk tdk menunggunya,
Biasa untuk tdk membutuhkannya,

dan akhirnya...
Biasa untuk tidak bersamanya...

Broken Secret Wall

After all shits happened in her life, and still goin on til today... The last thing Weby wants is telling people who she was, what she really is and what she actually becomes.

But, that night after 16 years she's been keeping the fuckin secret by her own, she barely couldn't stand of what she heard ; the words bulldozer made her heart walls breakin into pieces. 'I really want to have your pains', and just like that... Her screams suddenly crackin the night.

And for the first time in her life, the deepest secret came out from her lips following the tears that fall down from her eyes.

She doesn't know how to feels, only the shoulder seems lighter after she threw the most painful life experience she had been through these years alone.

What else she hopes for...

Which else she needs to...

How many dreams she chases more...

Who else she wants to get...

When will she let's someone in...

Everything already answered on that night...

Everything is there, stood up with open arms, big tender smile and genuine comfy eyes.

On the second she realizes what will happen with her future, on that moment she thanking God for given her the tremendous pains.

The secret had been told and still will be a secret for her plus one. But, the wall...

damn right it is already broken.