when words became bad perception

That day on June,
Was happen for a reason
God decided to give a sign
Not my or his fault, but HIS will

But since I heard he said 'I can't trust u anymore due to our day on june' ...
The thought is now wrong.

It became ;

That day on June,
Was happen because of me
I crossed the line
My fault.

It whispered slowly in my brain ...
If he thinks that day on June was my fault,
What if the day on August somehow became a mess?

According to last experience, I believe he will say the same...

And, he will think that whenever day in our life which has a mess,
Is my fault.

I can't ignoring words. Coz my ear so damn near to my brain.

If I don't hv his trust, so how can i share mine?